Motivation

“It’s hard to beat a person who never gives up” Babe Ruth

Today was rough.  My husband, Rob, and I just finished our first round of The Whole30 on Wednesday.  We had some exceptional scale and non-scale victories (that I’ll probably talk about at a later date) and have been feeling great!  We planned on doing 3 rounds in a row with one day between each round for a ‘cheat’ day.  Yesterday was our first cheat day and let me tell you how TIRED I am today!! Tired, unmotivated, foggy and just YUCK!  I’m so foggy that I’m having trouble gathering my thoughts to write this.  YIKES! Bear with me!

So this brings me to the topic which has been on my mind, MOTIVATION.  Rob and I  decided we needed those ‘cheat’ days to motivate us to get through each round and stay on track.  I need short term goals set inside long term goals to see my way through big things.  Like I said in my last blog post, I tend to get obsessive over things.  Stepping on the scale is definitely something I do compulsively.  So following the strict guidelines of The Whole30 of not stepping on the scale is GREAT for me, but if I didn’t throw a cheat day between rounds and allow myself to see my progress I would lose my motivation.

According to Marriam-Webster the definition of motivation is a force, stimulus, or influence.

What is your motivation?  How do you get yourself through a big project?  My husband’s motivation is completely different from mine.  He has to stay his course and not think about anything but the end goal.  I crave that ‘DONE’ feeling.  I have to break projects into smaller projects.  I need to be able to look at my progress on the big project and see that I’m making headway.  Sometimes it’s difficult to break large tasks down, and it requires a lot of planning and trial and error.  Sometimes it is so difficult to break down a project that they go unfinished.  God does not want me to lose my focus.

“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11

PhotoGrid_1498847546342As Rob and I launched into round two of The Whole30 today it is with our small goal in mind.  Not that I necessarily want to feel tired and foggy again, but I need to give myself some reprieve from the strictness of The Whole30 diet, something to look forward to, and the opportunity to pat myself on my back for my hard work.  So despite my exhaustion today I’m excited about the progress that I am making and am grateful that it is not only physically showing in my body but that I’m feeling my progress.  No matter what your motivation is don’t forget to be kind to yourself and celebrate your victories!

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My Tombstone

As a Virgo I do a lot more thinking than the average person, a lot more beating myself up, and a lot more competing with myself to the point of madness.  I’ve carried extra weight for the last 6 or 7 year, that came on quickly and stayed stubbornly.  I became an obsessive ‘health guru’ killing myself with crazy workouts, eating kale in all forms, and posting every 30 seconds on Facebook about my progress.  I’ve probably lost more friends than pounds in that time.  I had an epiphany at some point and realized that I did not want my life focused on losing weight.  I did not want to be known as the girl who tried to lose weight her whole life whether I managed to get thin or not.

“Here lies Gigi, the girl who tried to lose weight”

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I came across a photo some years ago of myself when I was 19 years old, the first time I thought I was fat. I’m on the left. 😦 Seriously sad face, what was WRONG with my brain?? I remember constantly tugging at that top, pulling it down to cover my ‘fat’.  I really started thinking about my mindset and how I thought about my body then and now.  I also thought about my level of happiness then and now.  I struggled through some major emotional problems and depression back then AND I LOOKED FINE!! Fast forward to now at 30-something years old (yeah yeah…age is just a number) and I’m happy and have my depression and emotional issues in check and I don’t look as good as I did back then but I LOOK FINE.  So what changed besides the expansion of my waistline?  My brain.

“Don’t you realize that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit, who lives in you and was given to you by God? You do not belong to yourself.” 1 Corinthians 6:19

My health is really important to me.  It’s important that I take care of the body I’ve been entrusted with.  And more selfishly it’s important to me that, that body not feel like doo-doo.  My mental health is really important to me as well and obsession, even over healthy things, is not good for anyone.  So I’m working on balance.  I am not perfect, and this is something you will learn about me if you stick around a while.  (It took every ounce of self-control I have to type doo-doo and not S#!T…one example of my imperfection)  I use social media as an outlet, and a bit of a journal, and it’s hard not to post obsessively about <insert whatever I’m obsessing over at the moment>.  I love motivating people, and setting a good example for good health, but it can’t be all that people see about me.

“Obsession with self in matters is a dead end; attention to God leads us out into the open, into a spacious, free life.” Romans 8:6-11

God wants me to be healthy, but not obsessive.  If I’m obsessing about my weight, then I’m not keeping my thoughts on Him and what he has planned for my life.  He has a plan for me and I know he wants me to set an example for others of good overall health.  So in this blog you’ll see a mish mosh of topics and whole lot of open honesty.  You’ll hear about my food, my fun, my kids, my triumphs, and my failures.  It may get ugly, but it will be real.